Be content with what you have, for God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." So say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid." - Hebrews 13:5,6

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

It's time.

I can't wait to spend my whole summer somewhere I love so much. I can't wait to live with you, and I can't even begin thinking of the fun we'll have. The simple smell of rain or the feel of a thunderstorm sends adrenaline through my tired veins. The thought of relaxation fills my mind and leaves me hopeless, writing a paper. I can imagine the grains of sand stick to my bare feet after jumping in, the rush of feelings I get as I watch the sunset shiver in reflection off the water, the wind blowing my hair out of my face as I drive down the highway, the small town hospitality, and the family bonding.

There are not words to describe how I feel about the summers staring into the glittery sky, dipping my feet in the water as the fire flickers on the beach. It couldn't get any better, unless you tie in family. Our kite day should be a blast, and so should the 4th. Swimming, tubing, and gray smoke billowing from the grill. I can't wait. I can't wait to get to know my cousins all over again. I can't wait to just let loose and not care anymore.

School is dragging on, and everyone knows if we are stuck here much longer, we will all lose our sanity. No doubt I will miss my college life, but for three months I can spend my life the way I want. On the beach surrounded by people I can't live without. Having the time of our lives, my friends and I will sit there, with nothing to do. Nothing to worry about. And more importantly, nothing to stress over.

It's impossible to get these thoughts out of my head unless it happens.
It's pure joy, excitement, and love.
Summer cannot come soon enough.

What is happening?

"I make stacks."
Sitting here listening to his New York accent while he eats our popcorn, Thea and I are in the twilight zone. It seemed so fake, almost like a dream. Lamborghini's and million dollar homes? Buying oceans and cities? Receiving VIP and being surrounded by people "I don't even know."

I'm dropping out.
Not for real though.
Makes you think twice about what kind of people are in this world.
Creeps me out a bit.

"Aw, sweetheart, you can do better than that. I can make that in a month. I make 6 figures a month."

That's all for now.
Tomorrow I will write more.