Be content with what you have, for God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." So say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid." - Hebrews 13:5,6

Monday, May 10, 2010

Kaylee, I miss you so much. It's going to be such a fun summer with you, the camper, the ride, our swimsuits are our friendship. I've been waiting for this to happen since you moved to college, but I'm glad it's been this long. Now we can enjoy each others company even more than what we usually do. After work, call me. :)

I also miss being there for my mom. It's going to be a long & joyous summer with her next to me the whole time. She had a good mother's day, which makes me happy. She really, truly deserves it. I hope things work out for her sooner or later. But until then I will just sit here with the burdens in my clenched fist, ready to throw them as far as I possibly can when the time comes. When it's all said and done, I want to say that I was there for her, and she was there for me. Being a best friend is what I want her title to be, and so far, it's been that way. I don't think many things could change her status in my eyes. She's an honest blessing that sits patiently for her treasure to come. & I promise, Mom, that something great will come your way. Amen. :)

Wednesday, May 5, 2010


Send your tearing sails to a sea that sinks deeper.
Divide your distorted attention for waves of simplicity and devine beauty.
Let the motions rock your eyes closed and free your nightly imagination.
Open eagerly to skies of a humbling blue and indulge in anothers kiss.
Set sail to the unkown and bring back memories and the true treasure:

Create yourself because you can't create others.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Better Days

School is winding down to virtually nothing so quickly. & I can say I've had a good run, an astonishing freshman year in college. Astonishing in more ways than one. Some good, and some bad. Studying for finals and such is breaking so many people down, but not me. I feel that if I push it aside, it will still get done. During Chi Alpha last week, a graduating senior told us about her praying to God about getting her through all of her finals and such. Her prayers were answered and she passed all her classes with A's and B's. So, moral of that story is that if I feel that I cannot take on something by myself, I should not be scared, I should just pray & ask God for help. :) I love Him.

Something else to talk about other than school...I'm moving home on Friday! Yippee! I miss my little brother and sister sooo much! Dad too. Sometimes I just don't know how to act in some situations that my parents put me in, but I somehow manage. I would like to say that I'm 100% happy that home is calling my name, but I think I will miss Moorhead and the friends that I've made more than I think...if that makes sense. I will be up visiting a lot, just because I can. Ha. The next year of my life, I know, will have struggles. I'm living with 4 other girls for pete's sake. But I also know that it will be one of the best times in my life, & I can't wait for that.

Tonight, I went to a dance show presented at MSUM. It was so fun. I loved to watch the people move, with and without music. It was inspiring, halcyon, and overall just...joyful. It made me think about what other things I could be trying, but am not.

I hope everything goes smoothly the rest of this week. Between studying, writing papers, and studying more, I will need the time at home and away from everything.

It's a great feeling. I'm not sure what I'm talking about. But it's there. Something's inside me, blooming my happiness all over again. It might be summer. It might be knowing that I have great friends and family. It might be that I'm blessed with having a job this summer. It might be that I'm moving out of the dorms. I can't decide what it is, but I love it & never want it to go away.

As my eyes weigh down and my brain slowly turns off, I say goodbye. Sleep good. :)